Stanek’s still writing about me and I suppose I could close up shop & adopt a new internet handle & let her frame my story to suit her agenda. But I can’t do that. I won’t do that. I told the truth about the abortion & I’m not going to lie about what happened to me to make people feel better about trying to control women’s bodies. I do want to shield my kids and my husband, but that doesn’t mean I’m going to let this…creature run me off the internet or run my life. We’re moving out of Memphis in no small part because I don’t feel safe here. I’ve already spoken with law enforcement, and after reviewing some of the emails I got they suggested moving. Not necessarily out of the state, but definitely out of our apartment and preferably out of the area.
Am I stressed out these days? Yes. And what with being human and all, I can only deal with so many sources of stress at once. Moving accomplishes many things for my family (not least being free of this awful apartment including the collapsing ceiling in the bedroom), but it doesn’t mean that I’m going to be silenced. It does mean I’m going to take reasonable precautions for the physical & emotional health of my family. There isn’t anything I can do about Stanek’s fixation on me, or her stated views, but really that’s always been the case hasn’t it? I’m going to keep living my life, and people can think or say whatever they like about how I do that. Because in the end I have to be able to look myself in the eye every day. So, I’m going to have moments when I wibble, and moments when I curse, but in the end all the moments are mine to have and for now that’s enough.
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Mikki, I miss you on this blog! I hope the move is going well and you are feeling more settled. I am working with BlogHer.com and we just launched a new channel (BlogHerMoms.com) that is all about the journey of motherhood, its challenges and joys, the way it takes our identity and turns it all around until we come back to remembering ourselves. I truly loved your piece about the abortion that saved your life. It was such good writing, such a horrible story, so much true in it. Would you consider letting me syndicate it on BlogHerMoms? Email me please at Stacy.Morrison@BlogHer.com. All best to you and your family.
(Oh, and P.S., you can read more about me here — http://www.blogher.com/you-you — and more about BlogHerMoms here — http://www.blogher.com/introducing-bloghermomscom )